《Belief Shattered, Courage to Face》
Taking responsibility alone. Accustomed to being a lone wolf, Lillian’s resilience was shaped. She tackled difficulties by herself and never sought help from her brothers, because as an only child, she had to maintain her pride and also respect Smith’s dignity. Although they lived apart, neither dared to overstep. In this household, Lillian's word was law. When in a disadvantageous position, innocence is the best shield.
Taiwan has made continuous progress in technology, healthcare, and cultural quality. Its medical field, in particular, has gained international recognition. The technique of separating test-tube babies has been a blessing for those struggling with infertility.
Lillian, exhausted both physically and mentally, had no one to discuss her issues with and had to follow the doctor's orders meticulously. The lengthy treatments drained both her finances and her energy.
With determination, success is inevitable. Lillian's hard work paid off, and she conceived a boy.
In 1992, the family welcomed the newborn, but only Lillian’s husband, Smith, had mixed feelings.
The quality of the sperm donor was chosen by the doctor, yet reality often contradicted Lillian’s dreams. The child was beautiful but had coordination issues, unlike other children.
Lillian’s sensitive nerves were triggered. Since marriage, her nerves had been constantly on edge. Oh, heavens! Among millions, she ended up with a defective one. The thought that the child had a cognitive disability (a flood of questions) circled in her mind.
One thought ruined two lives: the child’s and her own. Exhausted and tearful, beating her chest in despair, nothing could remedy her mistake.
Since the child became part of the family, Lillian was tied to him. Smith, unable to influence Lillian, had moved to a government dormitory. Overwhelmed, she turned to her mother, her greatest support. No matter the adversity, her mother was her last resort.
Lillian’s pride and self-esteem were altered by the birth of this child. She confided all her secrets and grievances to her mother. Mother and daughter wept in private, lamenting their cruel fate.
In those conservative times, both knew the fault lay with no one. The son-in-law’s future was far more important than the challenges they faced. Lillian's mother moved in to help care for the child, fearing her daughter might take a drastic step.
Despite her many struggles, Lillian's resolve regarding the child remained unbroken. She believed in the miracles of Taiwanese medicine. She spent a fortune on the child, finding joy and hope in every glance and every look from him.
《信念崩潰、勇於面對》
一人做事一人當。習慣獨來獨往，奠定林立蓮韌性。自己碰到難題都自己想，娘家兄弟誰也不能說。因為在家是獨生女，況且事關自己的面子，也要顧及史密斯的自尊。雖然各據一方，他們倆也多不敢造次。這個家幾乎都是林立蓮說了算。人一旦處於劣勢，無辜是最好的盾牌。
台灣一路走來，不管是科技、醫療、人文素質，都在進步中。尤其是醫學，在世界上小有名氣。試管嬰兒分離術，更是給不孕者福音。
林立蓮深受身心疲憊、體力支出，加上沒人商量，一切遵聽醫生。配合冗長療程，真的名副其實，人財兩失。
有志者事竟成，事情一定要有終結。林立蓮辛苦的代價，懷上了一男孩。
民國 81 年 (1992 年) 一家子融入於新生兒到來，唯獨林立蓮的老公史密斯，心態五味雜陳。
捐精者是醫生決定品質，夢幻劇情總是跟林立蓮作對。孩子五官清秀，就是手眼不協調，跟正常孩子不一樣。
林立蓮敏感神經又觸動大腦。自從結婚以來，林立蓮的神經總是緊繃著。上天啊！萬中選一…她選了一個不良品。孩子是智能缺陷 (多重疑問句？) 一盤旋腦子裡。
一個念頭毀兩個人的命運，一個孩子，一個自己。心力交瘁，哭紅了眼，捶胸頓足，也無法彌補自己錯了。
自從 (那孩子) 出生成為家人，林立蓮就跟這孩子綁在一塊。史密斯因為左右不了林立蓮，早就搬到國家宿舍住。巨大打擊，不得不求助自己母親，最大靠山，不管遭遇什麼絕境，媽媽總是最後依靠。
林立蓮的傲骨自尊防線，也因這孩子出生而改變。所有祕密，千絲剝繭，泣訴一人。所有委屈跟氣憤，母女倆暗自飲泣，命運捉弄人。
當下那個年代還屬民風保守。母女倆都知道錯不在任何人！女婿的前途，遠大於所有面對的難題！林立蓮的母親搬來和她同住，照應孩子，也害怕自己女兒走上絕路。
林立蓮諸多遭遇，並未擊垮對這孩子的現況。她相信台灣醫療可以創造奇蹟。大把鈔票往這孩子堆，哪怕？一回眸、一眼神，都可以讓林立蓮一絲快樂、一絲希望。
