(1970 年代初期的台灣記憶,Taiwan Memories of the Early 1970s)
《A Family's Struggle and Desperation》
The couple frequently argue over trivial matters. Ahua's defense mechanism against bullying has resurfaced. She isolates herself, neglects the children, and relies on Ajun for daily chores. Refusing to wash clothes or cook, she waits for things to be sorted out with Ajun.
In times of peace, trouble arises, leaving them wondering how to continue living like this. Ahua's parents sided with Ajun, resulting in Ahua's expulsion. Ahua's parents only advised Ajun to be more accommodating.
Giving someone an inch often leads to them taking a mile. The more Ajun yields to Ahua, the more she feels resentful towards him. Every argument ends with Ajun solemnly swearing to the heavens. After enduring endless quarrels, Ahua changes, using the children as weapons, resorting to venting her frustrations on them and breaking things.
Money becomes a symbol of victory, with lavish spending on clothes and shoes without hesitation. Ajun must be anxious, right? Ahua becomes unreasonable, seeking divine intervention, blaming supernatural forces, and resorting to various superstitious practices.
With the family's decline, Ahua's transformation is beyond comprehension. It's both heartbreaking and exhausting.
After giving birth to four children, Ahua underwent sterilization as per the government's "Two boys, two girls, four children is just right" policy.
Ignorance is scarier than stupidity. Rumors spread, suggesting Ahua's sterilization might affect her nerves. All she needs is to have a child, and everything will be fine. Poor Ajun tries his best but gets nowhere. Eventually, he takes Ahua to the clinic to reverse the tubal ligation and get her pregnant.
A daughter is born in 1975, followed by another in 1976. Ajun only focuses on immediate matters, oblivious to the responsibilities of raising children.
Ahua never earned a penny since marrying Ajun. The entire family's burden falls solely on Ajun.
Ahua exacerbates the situation, fearing that chaos might not reign. What's left of the home is now a manifestation of malevolent spirits. As the saying goes, "When luck is bad, misfortune follows."
Ajun is tormented by Ahua's erratic behavior day and night, while also struggling to provide for the family.
When Ahua goes to the market to buy groceries with the children, she has lost them two or three times already, thankfully returned by neighbors. These incidents have reached the ears of the village elders. Ajun's distress is akin to a bursting dam, exacerbated by the perception of being cursed in his parents' eyes.
Ajun's mother's disdain for Ahua is like an ongoing drama, with no resolution in sight. It only adds to Ajun's misery. Ahua's bizarre actions have led to her being labeled as "Mentally Unstable" in the community.
《家庭問題絕望與掙扎》
夫妻兩人大爭小吵。阿花被欺凌的防護牆,又開始顯現出來。封閉自己,對孩子放野,拿生活起居對恃。衣不洗,飯不煮,等的就是跟阿俊弄清楚明白。
天下本無事,無事惹塵埃。這樣日子怎麼過啊!阿花娘家父母替阿俊幫腔,結局是被轟出去。阿花父母只勸阿俊多讓點。
人最怕給點顏色,就開起染房來。阿俊越讓阿花,越讓阿花覺得阿俊愧對她。每次吵架,硬是要阿俊拿香對天發誓。吵吵鬧鬧久了,阿花變了樣,卻拿孩子當武器。打孩子出氣、摔東西。
錢已經是最好的勝利品。高檔衣服、鞋子不手軟。阿俊才當知著急是不是?阿花犯鬼了。求神問卜、怪力亂神、畫符鎮宅,樣樣來。
家道中落,千想萬想,也沒想到阿花怎麼變一個人。心痛也心累。
阿花生了四個孩子後就結紮掉,因為政府提倡「兩男兩女,四個孩子恰恰好」。
無知比笨還可怕。道聽塗說:說阿花有可能結紮影響到神經。只要生個孩子,就會好。可憐的阿俊使勁了,沒步了。真的帶阿花去診所解開輸卵管,讓阿花懷孕。
民國 64 年生一女,65 年再生一女。阿俊只想眼前事,不知孩子事要養啊!
阿花嫁給阿俊,不曾賺過一毛錢。一家子重擔,全是阿俊一人。
阿花變本加厲,唯恐天下不亂。家是什麼?已經是厲鬼惡魔的化身了。所謂「命不好,運又來磨。」
阿俊被阿花早也亂、晚也吵,搞得心神不寧。孩子小,又要掙飯吃,可以說內憂外患。
阿花上市場買菜,孩子帶出去,已經弄丟兩三回了,還虧是鄰居帶回來。也因這些舉動,耳傳到村里父母家。阿俊潰堤的心境,有如瀑布般一傾而洩。在父母眼裡,阿俊真的是歹命子。
阿俊的母親念阿花的不是,就像一本連續劇,問題並沒解決。只有讓阿俊更糟心。阿花行為怪舉,在民間也被判定「失心瘋 (瘋子)」。